Earlier this week, I had a mini-meltdown. I felt I was shouldering too much responsibility for managing the household and caring for the girls. I had very firm words with my husband and Raizel.
The resolution was that Raizel would start to take responsibility for washing the dishes and emptying out the dishwasher.
In the meantime, I wrote up a schedule for myself and shuttered as to how I could possibly do it all. Clearly, I needed help.
So, yesterday, on my way to work, I found myself driving behind a car with a vanity plate which said, “GODFIRST.” I was so struck by the message that I took a picture of it:
And so, I began to have a conversation with God. Out loud, I spoke to God, and I asked him to help me. I told Him how everything was too much for me. I needed Him to carry me and find the solution for my difficulties.
When I came home, I texted Jay,
Did you clean up??? Wow! Thank you! That was true love.
Raizel and Jay together cleaned up the kitchen for me. I felt that was one of the most beautiful and loving things that my husband could have ever done.
I feel so grateful to Hashem (God). He took care of me. It brought tears to my eyes.